I actually remember this conversation, despite being barely conscious. I couldn't speak yet, as my brain was so badly scrambled by the seizure, but I think I got my point across with my facial expressions. In my perfectionist Meghan Bayer way, I knew what I wanted to say, but I couldn't physically say it, which drove me crazy. I'll never forget this phone call, because it reminded me of what I needed to get better again to do and of all the kids I help teach, their families, and my classmates/family waiting for me to come home.
The last couple of days I've been getting lots of taekwondo training in, I worked a few classes Friday night, and I've been getting lots of summer schoolwork done. My whole reason why? Because I can. Everything I do today, we weren't sure I'd ever do any of it.
I started over to some degree. Swallowing, walking, talking, writing, decision making, routine activities of daily living, driving, moving my arms and legs, reading, unscrambling my vision, even basic math! Some things came quicker than others. My more executive functions were last to return in the middle of October after my midterms.
So, why do I do what I do? Because I can. We take so much for granted these days. You never know how blessed you are until you don't have it or almost lost it.
I am a 20 year old junior at the college of my dreams. I am studying Emergency Medicine and Communication Rhetoric and minoring in the Administration of Justice and National Preparedness and Emergency Management certificate. At some point, I want to go and get my paramedic certification when my health allows. I have several chronic illnesses and this blog and website serves as a place for me to share my journey fighting CRPS and my other conditions. I hope that this blog can also serve as an outlet for raising awareness for rare diseases. Thanks for reading and I hope you enjoy! Feel free to comment; I'd love to know what you think!