Rant Alert: Is it selfish that sometimes I wish that there was some visible, tangible reason for our pain? Don't get me wrong. I have just about every RSD/CRPS symptom in the book... Skin color, temperature, texture changes. And the list goes on and on. Abnormal EMG. Abnormal Q-SART (which "confirmed" my CRPS diagnosis). Everyday, I look at my body changing colors, changing temperatures, and I feel almost...insane. Like I'm losing it. But at the same time, I'm living life as best I can. College classes, skiing, Taekwondo, Netflix and hanging out with friends and family consume my time. I'm not depressed or anxious and I'm on Cymbalta for the nerve pain anyway. I see a pain psychologist when I feel it's necessary and she is so happy and impressed with how I am doing. With so much going "right", then why do I feel like I'm crazy and that my pain somehow isn't real? I'm just confused.
I am a 20 year old junior at the college of my dreams. I am studying Emergency Medicine and Communication Rhetoric and minoring in the Administration of Justice and National Preparedness and Emergency Management certificate. At some point, I want to go and get my paramedic certification when my health allows. I have several chronic illnesses and this blog and website serves as a place for me to share my journey fighting CRPS and my other conditions. I hope that this blog can also serve as an outlet for raising awareness for rare diseases. Thanks for reading and I hope you enjoy! Feel free to comment; I'd love to know what you think!