My recent cochlear implant explantation and re-implantation was rough to say the least. To control my pain, I was put on a ketamine PCA. Ketamine has a known side effect of hallucinations. When someone walked in the door with a gigantic teddy bear, I thought I was hallucinating.
As it turns out, I wasn't. My brother actually bought me a bear that was almost as big as me.
While the bear was a nice touch, the letter he wrote for me even more.
Dear Strongest Meg,
"The toughest battles are always fought by the strongest warriors." That is exactly what you are, a warrior. You face adversity on a level that people can't even begin to fathom, yet you do it with a smile on your face. You have this beautiful gift of finding the good even when facing hardships. There are only a few people in my life who I genuinely look up to and you are at the top of the list. No matter what you're going through, you are still able to do extremely well in school, work, compete in Taekwondo competitions, volunteer and a whole other list of things you're involved with. You made me want to apply to Pitt because I wanted to be like you and when I got in I was so incredibly happy. I felt like I had finally accomplished something great! In these coming years I will definitely always have you as my inspiration when I struggle through hard times in college. I'll think to myself: What would Meghan do? You helped me to realize what my purpose is. And that purpose to is help others and give them the courage, strength and perseverance you have always had. You're the strongest person I know and I know you are going to do so much good in the world.(you are already making a difference, but I digress.) Always know that I am here for you any hour of the day, week, month, year, decade. Forever. Thank you for believing in me when I had lost faith in myself. Without you I am not sure who I would be.
Much love from yours truly,
I mean who wouldn't bawl after reading that?! I surely did!
I am a 20 year old junior at the college of my dreams. I am studying Emergency Medicine and Communication Rhetoric and minoring in the Administration of Justice and National Preparedness and Emergency Management certificate. At some point, I want to go and get my paramedic certification when my health allows. I have several chronic illnesses and this blog and website serves as a place for me to share my journey fighting CRPS and my other conditions. I hope that this blog can also serve as an outlet for raising awareness for rare diseases. Thanks for reading and I hope you enjoy! Feel free to comment; I'd love to know what you think!