The world swirls almost as if entering the twilight zone... I'm... I'm slipping. Blink...Blink... Everything goes dark. The world goes on while I'm unconscious. Valuable time that I could be practicing taekwondo, studying, or learning new material.
When I awake, a headache so severe I have no words strikes. My vision blurs. I stutter in an effort to communicate. My neck and spine have a hot poker ripping right through the middle. Swallowing becomes difficult and speech become slurred.
As I spasm uncontrollably, forcing my body into unnatural positions, tendons and ligaments tear and bones threaten to buckle under the constant strain. Bones and joints dislocate, as every square inch of my body burns in fiery neuropathic pain exacerbated by the muscles rubbing against them.
When I truly come back to it, I'm in my dark bedroom lying in my bed, taekwondo uniform on, with soft music playing. The pain intensifies to a point that no medication can relieve.
That is what the most excruciating pain I've ever felt feels like. I am accused of being unreasonable after being in extreme pain and deprived of sleep longer than anyone should have to be. Therefore, I have no words....
I am a 20 year old junior at the college of my dreams. I am studying Emergency Medicine and Communication Rhetoric and minoring in the Administration of Justice and National Preparedness and Emergency Management certificate. At some point, I want to go and get my paramedic certification when my health allows. I have several chronic illnesses and this blog and website serves as a place for me to share my journey fighting CRPS and my other conditions. I hope that this blog can also serve as an outlet for raising awareness for rare diseases. Thanks for reading and I hope you enjoy! Feel free to comment; I'd love to know what you think!